People don’t know what happened to you; they assumed you are content in this world… If people could see you from the inside they would understand. I have been through my mother taking her own life… Do you know how I feel? If I told you that people think I’m gonna cry, in reality I don’t feel anything, if I say I don’t care it makes them think I’m selfish but I’m not. I never knew my mom that well and I was only five at the time, I can barely remember her.
What if I say…I feel nothing. It might sound weird but I’ve been through so much I just don’t know how I feel as a person anymore. I put on a fake smile and make people feel better… I want to make people feel better, I don’t want them to be like me where I don’t know how I feel about myself. I want them to live a good life with me around, no one can hold them back. I let them be them and I will support them.
You might think I have a sad life, but I’m content to be honest. I have an interest that keeps me going and lets me be who I want to be and so can you, you are you and no one can stop that. I have interests in tornadoes, I made a document dedicated to tornadoes and I’m learning so much about them. I tell myself “Isn’t it crazy that the world is like this?” There’s so many things we don’t know about that it’s kinda crazy. There’s also things we don’t know about ourselves and that’s driving me to learn, I can learn about you as a person and you are learning about me right now!
When you grow up what do you want to be? You are probably going to be like I don’t know depending if you are young. I have my future planned out and I’m feeling good about it, I want to own a pet store in Florida. You see I’m writing this and telling you my point of view on life, you might think this writing is a waste of time or amazing whatever you say i’m ok with. To be honest I feel like this writing is no good, but that’s just my opinion. I’d rather know someone else’s opinion before my own because that’s just how I am.
What if we all had the same normal life like one of those dystopian novels, would you be happy? I ask this because there are differences in this world, it’s a learning experience to have differences. It’s like how if no one could climb a tree you can’t see what’s at the top, I feel like people need to learn more about themselves and the people around them. You wouldn’t have known I went through all this stuff, or what keeps me going, so you should take the time to learn about your peers.
