Tears from the Sky

Prologue

Sometimes a flower will wake up in the middle of the night,

Lit up by fire

Under the pouring rain.

Sometimes it is the moonlight that will lead the way

To a blanketed field of glistening ice and snow,

Under raining flames.

I awoke and needed to drown,

While water drops plummeted against my begging forehead

Before I could finally breathe.

All along it was the tears from the sky

That watched me,

Touched me,

Cleansed me.

Summer 2018

At twelve years old,

A flower bud waiting to be discovered 

Left his family in the Philippines,

To live in a new home.

He ate dinner at the table with his stepfather, little sister,

And mother whom he barely knew.

He cried every night, and in every shower.

But he continued to fight,

To reach for the better education that brought him here;

An education that didn’t require etching terms and numbers in the brain,

Only to not understand them.

An education that challenged beautiful flowers to think, listen, and speak.

An education full of wealthy and friendly white flowers,

Like those he had always seen in movies and on TV

Back on the other side of the Earth. 

Fall 2018

Smiles welcomed him,

He was elated, nervous,

And confused–

the school schedules,

the new places, 

the lunches.

But mostly,

He was perplexed

By his peers.

The white,

Red, and blue America from the movies and TV 

Did not match the brown and black flower buds.

The curly leaves,

Startled him.

But they too were beautiful.

Like him, they were future flowers,

Waiting to be discovered.

Winter 2019

At least once,

Every flower attracts a bird,

That absorbs it,

Loves it,

And then the flower loves them back.

Once,

He found a dot of light,

That called to him:

private schools,

boarding schools,

their ridiculous flood of resources,

myriad dots of light.

Their whiteness flecked

With little splashes of black,

And brown.

It wasn’t fair as a stop light.

There was no stop light.

Sometimes we need green,

Sometimes we need red.

But most importantly,

It has to be equal,

And fair,

For both sides.

But there were no stop lights.

He knew he had to break through the barriers,

He knew he had to plant stop lights,

And continue to reach for this better education.

He found Beacon.

Summer 2020

The world never thought of a flower wearing a mask,

But this was the era of uncertainty.

His mother was suddenly outraged.

He didn’t understand.

He thought she was blind.

He just wanted the best education he could get.

He wanted the dot of light

To be lit up.

Was she blinded by the light he saw

Or the darkness from her childhood that followed her?

Instead, his best friend became the flashlight

That lit his way up.

His teachers became the contacts

That cleared the blur.

His tears became the hugs 

That he couldn’t feel for months.

Then, the world cried.

He heard it wail.

He caught every tear.

And he was drowning,

Under the reckless storm.

Spring 2021

Then,

My mother’s eyes

Suddenly became barely alive.

It took a flash flood

Before I reached the drought.

Which was better?

An ocean of tears?

Or an endless thirst?

I got “congratulations” from the boarding schools,

My teachers, friends, and classmates all sang my praises,

My family from the other side of Earth rose from their seats,

And jumped,

And screamed,

And their tears leaked 

From their bluest eyes.

My mother

Concluded her outraged storm.

But the outcome was drought.

Would a flower like me survive in this selective world?

Was drought better

Than drowning in the pouring rain?

I was certain that in order to rise,

I had to free my tears,

I had to drown

Under the tears from the sky,

So I could finally breathe.

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